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yesterday.
Every time I take another step forward,
another part of my dies.
Why?
Isn't this what I wanted?
To break free?
To find independence?
Happy independence day
to all the perfect happy families around me
celebrating together
while I drown
in my tears
alone.
A picnic
or a firework
does little to brighten
my countenance today as I muffle
the soft whimpers of shattered dreams
and cradle empty arms from which my screaming, straining baby was ripped
only hours ago.
It's ok to grieve. Yes, you wanted freedom, but you also are letting go of something that mattered to you.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry. Wish I could wrap my arms around you and let you cry on my shoulder.
So sorry for your pain. To quote a scripture, "be still and know that I am God." He will get you through this.
ReplyDeleteHard, hard, day. I am sorry.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry sweetheart. I wish I could wrap my arms around you too. You will get through this. <3
ReplyDeleteI can't find words that would possibly help you feel better. But this is whats in my heart. http://pinterest.com/pin/120682464984967381/ *hugs*
ReplyDeleteOh A....
ReplyDeleteI know it is SO easy to look around and think that all the other family's around you are perfect and happy... and I know they seem it... but, we are all struggling, in our own ways... your situation is brutal... I know... trust me, I know... I was there... in the same boat... it is SO awful and lonely and everything seems bleak... but I promise you things will get better! You will find balance and happy and you will adjust. I love what Michelle said.. it still hurts... but this independence was crucial considering your circumstance... lean on your instincts... remember to trust your gut. Remember what got you here in the first place, as hard as it is.
I love Marlee's quote. It is perfect.
You will be okay. I know it's hard to even comprehend how and WHEN... but you will be ok.
Love you.
That has to be so hard. To have a part of your life severed with a signature-when you gave so much of yourself to it. Know that love for you flows freely- as I read pain in your words and wish there was something more I could do for you than write on a computer screen. Prayers for you, healingfromheavensfountain. Peggy
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