Prove me

I've been listening to a lot of EFY music lately, which is kind of funny considering I never actually attended an EFY conference when I was in the church youth program. However, I always did love the music! Anyway, the other day while I was rocking out on my iPod on the elliptical, the song "Prove Me" from the 2006 album came on, and I just thought it just fit my current situation, feelings, and attitude so well that I had to share. 

I am trying to be brave. I am doing my best. But in the end it's never enough. I always need the Lord to make up the difference. It's a process, right? This lifetime, I mean. That's what we're doing here, isn't it? Learning. Trying. Struggling. Learning some more. For me, it's just an especially steep learning curve right now. And I suppose I can either whine and cry about it, or ... I can be glad that it's teaching me to be humble and ask for the Lord's help.* I sure have been bugging him a lot lately. =D

(*Note to self: Read this post on a day when I am whining and crying about it!)

Below is the song for your listening (not really viewing) pleasure, and I have also included the lyrics.

Prove Me

by Hilary Weeks

Fearless heart unwavering faith

The kind of courage and conviction that it takes 

To leave your home behind or part the Red Sea 

I wonder did God plant that kind of strength in me? 

Just a seed now but maybe it will grow 

'Till prison walls crumble down around me 

And I've escaped unscathed from the lion's den 

When I have walked so far the handcart starts pushin' me 

Until then ... Prove me 

Centered on the wheel like clay in your hands 

Ready to be shaped and molded by your hand 

And If you'll take this heart willful as it seems 

And through your mercy refine me until I'm complete 

Though I'm weak now you can make me strong 

'Till on a wall arrows cannot harm me 

Until my faith leads me into a grove of trees 

When every nail's in place before the rains and floods come down 

Until then ... Prove me 

I will step into the fire so your love can purify me 

And I'll stay until you say I am through 

Wash away all the flaws and every earthly imperfection 

Until my will turns to you 

Until I trust without hesitation 

When humility has chased away the pride 

Until the day and through your grace I'm welcomed home 

Until then ... Prove me